Probably in need of an update of some sort. 


  • Beach, obviously.
  • Bleachers
  • Went to Texas - where I got to spend some quality time with my best friend and some wild animals. 
  • Third Eye Blind
  • Started working at the pool again
  • Started dancing again!
  • Hung with the dudes.
  • Warped tour w/ the bffs
  • Big Sur
  • Met a dude - still getting to know him. Scared to take things farther… maybe I’ll talk about that later. I probably won’t. 
  • Baby Goya movie thing in LA with friends and boy. We got tons of great food that day. It was good to see Jack and Jon and everyone but fuck. It was too hot for dancing. 
  • Hangs with Michelle at her new house and in her pool. 

I’m currently sitting in my room with the stomach flu. Luckily it’s calmed down a lot. Probably got it from one of my students. 
This is my last week of work and I haven’t even gotten to go in yet… Lame. 
Going to Catalina next week though! Really stoked to camp there and cliff jump. 
Then, right before Fall semester starts my best friend is coming to town for her birthday. So excited for that. 



I’m just not what they’re looking for. I cover up my own beauty to conform to their ideals. I know I shouldn’t let them get to me, but their thoughts undermine my confidence. I used to believe that I was beautiful. The constant brainwashing has warped my self-image. “My nose is too big, and my stomach is fat - why oh why can I not look like that? My skin is a mess, my teeth are a wreck, and my body is an absolute joke”. Why should I wish to change? What exactly is “beauty”? After all, I have all that I need - a body & a brain that are functioning. I don’t need all of your fucking material things.” 

Self-Portrait | Social Commentary Project | San Diego, CA

© Julie Pavlacka 2014

This is a project I am turning in on Monday. Yeah.